{"id":31255,"date":"2024-03-15T09:02:10","date_gmt":"2024-03-15T13:02:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/?p=31255"},"modified":"2024-11-21T05:43:11","modified_gmt":"2024-11-21T10:43:11","slug":"encountering-gods-compassion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/encountering-gods-compassion\/","title":{"rendered":"Encountering God’s Compassion"},"content":{"rendered":"
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It was a few days before Christmas in 2013. I was sitting in a car with my son David, a college sophomore, while our friend Zhou was driving us to meet my husband Fonda for lunch on the other side of the town. It was 11:40 am. Fonda was riding in the passenger seat of another car; someone else was driving. I called Fonda to tell him we were on our way. No answer. I called again. Still no answer. I became anxious. At 11: 45 am, my phone rang. It was Fonda\u2019s number. I picked up the phone. \u201cI am an emergency doctor. There was a car accident. Your husband died.\u201d<\/strong> In an instant, my world turned upside down.<\/p>

After the initial numbness and shock, I was overwhelmed with grief, sadness, sorrow, and fear. I did not know how to live my life. Most importantly, I could not find God. In fact, I was angry with God and doubting His love.<\/p>

My counselor Crystal asked me to draw a picture of my pain, sorrow, and anger and express them to God. As an East Asian woman, I had learned to fear God and obey Him. But express my emotions like sorrow and anger to God? I was not sharing my deep emotions with my parents or other authorities. How dare I share them with the Almighty God? I could not do it.<\/p>

Crystal showed me how the psalmists expressed their hearts in God\u2019s presence.<\/p>

\u201cMy God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish?
My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, but I find no rest.\u201d
(Psalm 22: 1-2)<\/strong><\/p>

With her gentle insistence, I opened my heart toward God, allowing my pain, sorrow, doubt, anger, and hopelessness to flow out, and I drew a picture. While drawing the picture, I sensed God\u2019s warm and gentle presence on my side and His grace covering all of me. With surprise and gratitude, I lingered in His love and comfort. A sense of hope came back. Through this experience, God\u2019s compassion deeply touched my heart, and I realized God\u2019s heart was big enough to handle my painful emotions.<\/strong> God\u2019s gracious presence is actually the most secure place for my emotions. That was a turning point at the initial stage of my long and arduous grief journey.<\/p>

More than ten years have passed since Fonda died. I have gone through many struggles and experienced lots of conversations with God and numerous redemptive encounters with God\u2019s compassion. Over time, the Lord has been cultivating my internal security, inner strength, and discernment through counselors, spiritual directors, loving family, and friends. As painful as the loss of my husband, God has been faithful in healing, nurturing, and invigorating my inner being through His grace. With a grateful heart, I rest in my identity as God\u2019s beloved.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t

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The loss of a loved one is a uniquely difficult pain. Kimberely shares how she worked through her long and arduous grief journey and found…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":34238,"featured_media":31306,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"inline_featured_image":false,"site-sidebar-layout":"default","site-content-layout":"","ast-site-content-layout":"default","site-content-style":"default","site-sidebar-style":"default","ast-global-header-display":"","ast-banner-title-visibility":"","ast-main-header-display":"","ast-hfb-above-header-display":"","ast-hfb-below-header-display":"","ast-hfb-mobile-header-display":"","site-post-title":"","ast-breadcrumbs-content":"","ast-featured-img":"","footer-sml-layout":"","ast-disable-related-posts":"","theme-transparent-header-meta":"default","adv-header-id-meta":"","stick-header-meta":"default","header-above-stick-meta":"","header-main-stick-meta":"","header-below-stick-meta":"","astra-migrate-meta-layouts":"set","ast-page-background-enabled":"default","ast-page-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"ast-content-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[380],"tags":[410,376,374,359],"keyword":[],"class_list":["post-31255","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-womens-stories","tag-death","tag-emotions","tag-grief","tag-hope"],"acf":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/226\/2024\/03\/jaime-dantas-QHVmPvXefdE-unsplash-crop.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"meta_box":{"_cloudsearch_visibility":"0"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31255","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/34238"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=31255"}],"version-history":[{"count":21,"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31255\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":35456,"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31255\/revisions\/35456"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/31306"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=31255"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=31255"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=31255"},{"taxonomy":"keyword","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ldhr.org\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/keyword?post=31255"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}